tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22769430091691055242024-02-19T05:36:26.289-08:00Uber Otaku - LifeThis is the every-day blog of a simple Seattle girl trying to live out her life the best she can.KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.comBlogger196125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-15173277169905226672012-02-25T14:02:00.000-08:002012-02-25T14:02:25.055-08:00Stuck<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/6324120405/" title="BJD-Photostory-2011-11-07-Leeloo-Darn Dreams - 12 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Photostory-2011-11-07-Leeloo-Darn Dreams - 12" height="333" src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6240/6324120405_da4e4e1cf0.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
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I've had a lot of good things happen lately... but I still seem to get stuck on the few things that do frustrate me.<br />
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Maybe they aren't things that would be very important to other people, but they ruffle my feathers. I feel kind of distant from the friends I have and its mostly not any one particular party's fault. Schedules are crazy, things have happened, I've been on an emotional roller coaster lately.<br />
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I really miss my friends<br />
I want my friends to be happy and healthy<br />
I want to be happy<br />
I want to be more motivated and on top of things<br />
I want to be able to easily park my car<br />
I want to weigh 120 lbs.<br />
I wish some of my past hadn't happened. I wish this grey cloud wasn't always there.<br />
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Money doesn't solve as much as I once thought it did.<br />
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(144627V) ~> (14881V)</div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-70553080951286892052012-02-08T14:21:00.000-08:002012-02-08T14:21:15.686-08:00Looking Back a year<div style="text-align: center;">
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Looking back a year reminds me of what a terrifying time it was.</div>
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I feel like the last year shouldn't of happened, like I should have already been where I am now - then. Who would've known "<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://xxailon.blogspot.com/2011/02/ive-lost-some-of-pieces-to-my-broken.html" target="_blank">I really thought I had found him. I still think I have.</a>"</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"> would end up being such a reality.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">I found him, he left, another tried coming back for their own sinister intent and then left and </span></span><span style="line-height: 18px;">hypocritically</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"> married another, a new one tried to swoop in, and then he came back having realized his mistake.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I took a chance again at the happiness I first envisioned months before. If I survived his heartbreak once, I could do it again. In fact this time I would be enraged instead of devastated and my anger is a frightful thing to behold.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I'm thankfully living that happiness so far but I also unwillingly live with a shadow of the past looming over my head. Sometimes I feel like an abuse victim that automatically flinches as an auto reflex to a hand reaching out to hug instead of hit. I can't help whats happened in the past - as much as I wish I could.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: xx-small; line-height: 18px;">(14314V) ~> (14627V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-72354568798755076882012-01-18T17:05:00.000-08:002012-01-18T17:05:07.389-08:00BJD Fun in the snow!Fers!<br />
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Leeloo: Ooops!<br />
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<3 <3 <3<br />
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It was his idea for Leeloo to push XoXo into the snow!<br />
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I plopped XoXo in the snow and Fen and Kitty took care of the girls<br />
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Minifee snow plop aftermath<br />
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XoXo can't get a break!<br />
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My beautiful Switch<br />
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</div><i style="background-color: white; color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( 13467</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 14314</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></i>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-12975177247765872822011-11-06T22:23:00.000-08:002011-11-06T22:41:07.587-08:00A parade of Unicorns!<div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I got my Adamelli's and Shale in a few weeks ago... and have gotten two of the three done. I've never had to dremel and carve into new dolls this much... just to be able to put them together as they were "designed" to. Its a good thing I can do my own mod work!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Here is a video of my opening<br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">Little Elipses's Faceup done to be a younger version of Big Elipses - my SOOM MD Heliot with the Default Faceup.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/6321028067/" title="Little Elipses-1.5 - 1 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Little Elipses-1.5 - 1" height="411" src="http://farm7.static.flickr.com/6240/6321028067_ae3fbc475f.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Here is Cortana - my Drag Queen conquerer and genius Entrepreneur. (Little Cortana is on the right... this is what Cortana turns to when she's angry)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/6282149428/" title="BJD-Meetup-2011-10-24-Halloween Meet - 06 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2011-10-24-Halloween Meet - 06" height="500" src="http://farm7.static.flickr.com/6104/6282149428_8729022c61.jpg" width="333" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hope you enjoyed!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><i style="background-color: white; color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( 12157</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 13467</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></i>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-3532495262993802322011-08-05T16:10:00.000-07:002011-08-05T16:10:08.986-07:00Second Chances<div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5502629129/" title="Ashley-BJD-Photostory-2011-02-09-Leeloo-Valentines Nightmare - 20 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Ashley-BJD-Photostory-2011-02-09-Leeloo-Valentines Nightmare - 20" height="375" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5100/5502629129_eb97f3b995.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">I'm <b>so</b> scared.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><br />
</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/yI5dew2xpeo" width="425"></iframe></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">I'm scared of not knowing how things will turn out</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">- of missing that chance of happiness I thought I had -</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966;">I'm scared of it happening all over again. It almost killed me before...</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966;">- but I have faith in myself, my loved ones, and my strength -</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">I'm scared of loosing my hope in a love forever</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">- loosing my faith in love's existence -</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan;">I'm scared you won't appreciate this second chance</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan;"> - that it will be forgotten over time -</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;">I'm scared of being disappointed</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;"><br />
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</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;">Change is scary</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;">Change is good</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;">Change is needed to grow</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;">But is it the right change?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">What will change?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Will anything change?</div></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( 11514</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 11918</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></span></span></i></span></div></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-77753051130518932872011-06-23T08:24:00.000-07:002011-06-23T08:24:41.469-07:00Thank you to the BJD CommunityI've been very very busy lately, but in a good way.<br />
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Now that I've finally had a chance to be able to catch my breath and reflect on the past month or so I wanted to be sure to send a thank you out to the BJD Community. I've had an absolute blast keeping <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Services_Offered.html">UberOtakuDesigns</a> filled with work to do. I love the satisfaction I get from making fellow collector's BJD ideas/characters come to life. Doing this not only gives me a way to utilize my artistic tallents to make other's dreams come true, it also has really helped me to make my BJD dreams come true.<br />
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Here is another creation I helped come into fruition via <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Services_Offered.html">Uber Otaku Designs</a>. Meet Mezzo! (Doll owned by HeavenlyRiot)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5862278384/" title="Mezzo Commission by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Mezzo Commission" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5265/5862278384_5413a58685.jpg" width="333" /></a></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I did his <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Current_Commissions/Entries/2011/1/17__completed__Scar_Shiwoo_%2B_arm_-_Heavenly_Riot.html">Face and Lightening arm</a> (his right arm) back in December, and just did his <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Current_Commissions/Entries/2011/6/7__complete__MNF_Fire_Arm_-_HeavenlyRiot.html">Fire arm</a> (his left arm) this week. Its nice to see a doll fully come together. I did some extra work on his face and lightening arm this week to try to help tie all the work together. The focus/reference and time frame for each commission was different - so it was a fun challenge to tie them together.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5862279392/" title="Mezzo Commission by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Mezzo Commission" height="500" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3034/5862279392_5d45837abb.jpg" width="203" /></a></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5861727607/" title="Mezzo Commission by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Mezzo Commission" height="500" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3056/5861727607_488771b5aa.jpg" width="147" /></a></div><br />
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Uber Otaku Designs has been far bussier than I ever thought it would be - and I love it! It has helped me get another one of my grail dolls - Yerith my SOOM MD Chalco. He is my Red Bull. His one goal is to control and consume all other things magical. He's constantly after my Herd of unicorns, especially the lady Amalthea.<br />
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I purchased him second-hand - and the transaction couldn't have been more dreamy. Great seller and great product! I bought him completely fullset (all clothes, extra blushing, eyes, wig, etc) and he came with extra goodies.<br />
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I did a video box opening for him - as I try to do for all of my dolls.<br />
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I also have some lovely pictures of him to share below.<br />
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Here he is fullset:<br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5838031601/" title="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 03 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 03" height="640" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5304/5838031601_dfb1db6880_z.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5838583060/" title="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 04 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 04" height="375" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5113/5838583060_41db0a0c5b.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5838033343/" title="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 11 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Arrival-Yerith - 11" height="375" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5224/5838033343_a6693021a4.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div>Here he is with his correct eyes:<br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5838115025/" title="Yerith by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Yerith" height="640" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5115/5838115025_e0d140e760_z.jpg" width="478" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">And just in case you lovely people are reading this and are interested in commissioning me please check out the links below:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/P%7B%7Drtfolio/P%7B%7Drtfolio.html">My Portfolio (see examples of my work)</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Services_Offered.html">Services Offered (see my list of BJD Services)</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Current_Commissions/Current_Commissions.html">Current Commissions (See what I'm Currently working on)</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 15px;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( 11130</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 11514</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></span></span></i></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-88872413411432681322011-06-01T13:17:00.000-07:002011-06-01T13:17:05.446-07:00Deja Vu<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5779370382/" title="The Moment I said it... by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="The Moment I said it..." height="375" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3593/5779370382_e3f69e8884.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">It's like I read the <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qemWRToNYJY&feature=player_profilepage#t=40s">weather report </a>and shrugged my shoulders before the <a href="http://xxailon.blogspot.com/2010/12/chapter-over-time-to-start-new.html">storm</a> returned.</div><div style="text-align: center;">"I told you so" - says the universe.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">I heard that you're settled down,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">That you found a girl and you're married now,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">I heard that your dreams came true,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span></i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">For me it isn't over - and I'll never get to finish the fairy tale</div><div style="text-align: center;">So many things wrong, and some so right</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">I had hoped you'd see my face,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px;">And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,</span></i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Nothing compares, no worries or cares, regrets and mistakes their memories make</div><div style="text-align: center;">Who would have guessed how bitter-sweet this would taste</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Nevermind</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'll forget</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've got to give up on fantasy</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've learned contentment.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;">This one thing I can't control - is the one thing I wish I could change</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><i>I'm done searching</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><i>There's no point to</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( 10612</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 11138</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></span></span></i></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-34475790509911376672011-05-06T08:09:00.000-07:002011-05-06T08:09:20.697-07:00New apartment, Livecast, Uber Otaku Designs, and Unicorns<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">BJD's, Robots, and Fun - OH MY!</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">A lot has happened since I last really blogged.</div><br />
<ul><li><a href="http://youtu.be/hSbXYycsqFY?hd=1">Moved into a fabulous place...</a></li>
<li><a href="http://youtu.be/--CMDEUrTXg?hd=1">Got it all setup</a> and have been doing TONS of fun/crafty/creative things</li>
<li>Had a great weekend of <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5658858585/">Cosplay</a>, BJD's, Panels at <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5658859015/">Sakuracon 2011</a></li>
<li>Got a robot that cleans my AWESOME wood floors for me</li>
<li>Re-Opened my <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Services_Offered.html">BJD commission shop</a> and got <a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/Uber_Otaku_Design/Current_Commissions/Current_Commissions.html">filled with commissions </a>=)</li>
<li>Started a <a href="http://www.livestream.com/kireix">Livestream</a> channel so people can watch what I'm doing live and chat with me (lately I've been doing BJD commission work or my own BJD mods)</li>
<li>SOOM finally brought back my faith in them... I think I simply *must* get <a href="http://dollsoom.com/eng/shop/item.php?it_id=1304496105">more unicorns...</a> They will be the children versions of Elipses and Amalthea / grown up Beyla. </li>
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Drum Set A (for MSD or Tiny - see dolls for scale) $20 + Shipping + PP<br />
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included<br />
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5633551141/" title="MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-01 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-01" height="374" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5026/5633551141_8273693eab.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5633553801/" title="MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-02 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-02" height="374" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5185/5633553801_b4eab7b1e4.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
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Drum Set A (for MSD see dolls for scale) $120 + Shipping + PP<br />
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included<br />
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5634134324/" title="MSD Drum Set B for sale-01 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="MSD Drum Set B for sale-01" height="374" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5310/5634134324_d0223bec98.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5634135588/" title="MSD Drum Set B for sale-02 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="MSD Drum Set B for sale-02" height="374" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5301/5634135588_486c502139.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
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Guitar (for MSD - maybe SD - shown with MSD Minifee for scale) $25 + Shipping + PP<br />
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included<br />
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5633552567/" title="MSD Guitar for sale by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="MSD Guitar for sale" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5021/5633552567_2a344a21a9.jpg" width="374" /></a><br />
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<a href="mailto:kireiyo@gmail.com">Email</a> me if you have any questions!<br />
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Items will be packaged well so they get to you safely. I should be able to ship within 3-5 business days of receipt of full payment. I ship with USPS and recommend insurance. Once the items leave my possession they are no longer my responsibility.<br />
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I'm excited to announce <span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: navy;"><b>Uncanny Dream - Articulated Fantasy 2011</b></span></span>, a brand new Ball-Jointed Doll Expo in downtown Seattle, WA. This one-day event will feature diorama displays by 7 of the Pacific Northwest's top BJD Customizers. The Expo will also include several Vendors, space for visitors to set up their wares to trade or sell in a trunkshow, and public meetup and photography space. <br />
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<div align="center"><span style="color: purple;"><b>Admission is Free!</b></span></div><br />
Uncanny Dream will be held Sunday May 29th, 2011 in a large art studio/gallery space in Pioneer Square, right on the Seattle Waterfront. Artists were invited to create fantasy worlds for their dolls to inhabit, ranging from traditional fantasy to steampunk and cyber. We have put together an exciting list of talented BJD customizers from Seattle and the NW region to build these diorama displays, including:<br />
<div align="center"><a href="http://candygears.livejournal.com/" target="_blank">Candygears</a><br />
Christy (<a href="http://irisshell.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Captured in Thought</a>)<br />
Fenris (<a href="http://resinplus.omgforum.net/" target="_blank">resin+</a>)<br />
<a href="http://kiyakotari.com/" target="_blank">Kiyakotari</a><br />
<a href="http://bjd-photostories.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">KireiX</a> and <a href="http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?419006-KEEKLAND-Keekster-s-face-ups-scars-tattoos-and-more" target="_blank">Keekster</a> (<a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/thebjdcast" target="_blank">BJD Cast</a>)<br />
KasaMadhuri777 (Alraune Atelier)</div><br />
A huge variety of customized dolls will be present, including Soom, Dollstown, Fairyland, Dollshe, Dollzone, and many many more.<br />
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We have also lined up exciting vendors to sell clothes, wigs, accessories and dolls, including <a href="http://www.jpopdolls.net/store/home.php" target="_blank">Jpopdolls</a> and <a href="http://dollsofmine.com/Default.aspx" target="_blank">Dollsofmine.com</a>. Other vendors and special activities will be announced as we draw closer to the event.<br />
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The main Gallery space will feature the artists' BJD dioramas for you to enjoy and photograph. The large Hallway Gallery will feature the vendors, and have some space for visitors to set up their own wares in a trunkshow format. The large Photography Studio next to the main gallery will be a public meetup area, and has lots of space to setup and photograph any dolls you're bringing with you. <br />
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Uncanny Dream is taking place in the <a href="http://619western.com/" target="_blank">619 Western Artist Building</a> in downtown Seattle, in the <a href="http://experiment17.com/Gallery.html" target="_blank">X17 Gallery</a> space. There is ample parking underneath the Alaskan Way Viaduct right behind the building (free on Sundays) and a pay-lot adjoining the building. It is also in easy walking distance to Uwajimaya Asian Market & Bookstore, International Model Toys, Pike's Place Market, and the Seattle Downtown Shopping core so visitors driving to Seattle for the event have convenient access to all Downtown has to offer. <br />
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<div align="center">Location Info for Uncanny Dream 2011:</div></span></span></b><div align="center"><br />
<span style="color: purple;">619 Western Ave (4th Floor South)<br />
Seattle WA, 98104<br />
12-6PM Sunday May 29th, 2011</span><br />
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More details to come as the event approaches. Any vendors interested in joining the event can message Candygears on DoA or email her at <a href="mailto:candygears@gmail.com">candygears@gmail.com</a>. Artist Diorama submissions for this event are closed, but everyone is encouraged and invited to bring their dolls, and use the public meetup space and photography space.<br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?435298-%E2%9C%96-Uncanny-Dream-Articulated-Fantasy-2011-Seattle-Doll-Expo-May-29th-%E2%9C%96&p=7605011#post7605011">Original DoA post (for updates) </a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?435297-%E2%9C%96-Uncanny-Dream-Discussion-Seattle-Doll-Expo-May-29th-%E2%9C%96&p=7605008#post7605008">DoA Discussion Thread</a></div><br />
<div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">9328V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 9583</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-22961412639113347302011-03-15T08:28:00.000-07:002011-03-15T09:50:13.152-07:00We both lost something we loved<div style="color: black; text-align: center;">We both lost something we "loved".<br />
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It's sad that yours was a <b>painting</b>, and mine a<b> person</b>.</div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5518519152/" title="All that hard work for not... by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="All that hard work for not..." height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5212/5518519152_ff8dc64f3f.jpg" width="375" /></a></span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</span></span></b></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><br />
</span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5529547198/" title="Untitled by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="" height="240" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5171/5529547198_2d34c3e0ff_m.jpg" width="214" /></a></span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><br />
</span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5528971087/" title="Untitled by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5057/5528971087_58032cb662.jpg" width="375" /></a></span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_91375464"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">I was right....</span></span></a></b></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://xxailon.blogspot.com/2011/02/scratch-as-if-it-meant-nothing-twill.html">I don't matter to you - and it all meant nothing</a></b><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"> </span></span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">9158V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 9328</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-86420751951916875412011-03-11T09:56:00.000-08:002011-03-11T09:57:31.969-08:00The Art of My Heart<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5517261075/" title="The Art of my Heart by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="The Art of my Heart" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5099/5517261075_1d9af024b1.jpg" width="375" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>It was obvious in my work first, that only I cared.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>It was one-sided and I couldn't see it.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Till the devastating end.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I was a pawn on your game, whether you realized it or not.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I had finally let myself trust my heart and what I felt.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>You made me believe that you felt the same, or at least that you even gave the slightest shit.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I had finally let myself dream.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I dreamed of our future, even though it was uncertain.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I didn't dream of my success, your success, our house, our money, or any of those material things.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I dreamed of being by your side. </b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>I wanted our forever.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm left with this...</div><div style="color: #cc0000; text-align: center;"><b>GAPING</b></div><div style="color: #cc0000; text-align: center;"><b>GROSS</b></div><div style="color: #cc0000; text-align: center;"><b>UGLY</b></div><div style="color: #cc0000; text-align: center;"><b>EXCRUCIATING</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b style="color: #cc0000;">cavity</b> in me.... </div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;">ALL that is ME. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b><span style="color: red;"><b>life</b></span>, <span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b> <b><span style="color: orange;">heart</span></b>, <span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b><span style="color: #f1c232;"> <b style="color: yellow;">hopes</b></span>, </div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b><b><span style="color: lime;">dreams</span></b>, <span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b> <b><span style="color: cyan;">happiness</span></b>, <span style="background-color: black; color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="background-color: black;"><span style="color: purple;"></span></b> <b><span style="color: blue;">sanity</span></b>, </div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;"> <span style="color: #999999;"> </span></span></div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;"><span style="color: #999999;">My</span> </span><b style="color: purple;">everything</b><span style="color: purple;"> </span></div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"></div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><i><b style="color: #999999;"> <u style="color: white;">ME</u> </b></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">A friend told me this song in its entirety reminded him of me. It's <i>beautiful</i> </div><div style="text-align: center;">- Thank you -</div><div style="text-align: center;"><object classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" data="http://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/track=1356249567/size=grande/bgcol=FFFFFF/linkcol=4285BB//" height="100" type="text/html" width="300"><param name="movie" value="http://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/track=1356249567/size=grande/bgcol=FFFFFF/linkcol=4285BB//"><param name="quality" value="high"><param name="allowNetworking" value="always"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="never"><object data="http://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/track=1356249567/size=grande/bgcol=FFFFFF/linkcol=4285BB//" type="text/html" width="300" height="100"></object></object></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PN9l_vPC-xU&feature=player_detailpage#t=85s">Goodbye my loved, precious person</a></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PN9l_vPC-xU&feature=player_detailpage#t=85s">My gaze was riveted to you only as you walked away</a></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PN9l_vPC-xU&feature=player_detailpage#t=85s">Goodbye to the me who cried until yesterday.</a></b><br />
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<div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8937V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 9158</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-87489833057999603582011-03-08T10:30:00.000-08:002011-03-08T10:30:35.957-08:00Today is the birth day of my misery<div style="text-align: center;">How can I wish him happy birthday, when all he's brought me is misery. </div><div style="text-align: center;">The worst pain and heartache of my life.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5503213636/" title="Ashley-BJD-Photostory-2011-02-09-Leeloo-Valentines Nightmare - 14 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Ashley-BJD-Photostory-2011-02-09-Leeloo-Valentines Nightmare - 14" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5178/5503213636_d1671a1466.jpg" width="305" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I can't even reach the safety of my own apartment each day before the tears overwhelm my strength. Every day I close my front door and crumple to the floor crying. Un-ending. It's all I can do to keep afloat and tie this mask on day after day.</div><br />
To pretend to be OK.<br />
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To pretend that I don't need him<br />
<br />
To pretend that I'm getting better<br />
<br />
To pretend that I'm starting to hate him<br />
<br />
Wishing I could hate him<br />
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Wishing I could forget him<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">"What good is a love... that no one shares</div><div style="text-align: center;">And if my life... is like the dust that hides the glow of a rose</div><div style="text-align: center;">then what good am I"</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Can't this be like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want it erased. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8803V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8937</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-29382149429016795402011-03-06T14:45:00.000-08:002011-03-07T07:34:43.418-08:00The Hard Part<div style="text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5503637823/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" title="Untitled by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5215/5503637823_68a7fb029c.jpg" width="499" /></a></div><br />
The thing that makes it so hard is not because I love you.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Its not because you were taken away, as most tragic love stories are written.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="color: #cc0000;">It's because you walked away.</div><div style="color: #cc0000;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8728V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8803</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-26587438610302851962011-03-04T23:38:00.000-08:002011-03-04T23:38:56.668-08:00Congratulations<div style="text-align: center;">Obliterated</div><div style="text-align: center;">(Almost made it) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5498403501/" title="Obliterated by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Obliterated" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5211/5498403501_29766e1da2.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">This, the only evidence left of my heart.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5499000554/" title="Only Evidence of my heart by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Only Evidence of my heart" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5091/5499000554_bbb7583aeb.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gone - Never to feel again - pain or love.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5499001556/" title="Never to feel again by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Never to feel again" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5133/5499001556_158bcfce9c.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Blank.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5499002228/" title="Blessing by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Blessing" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5256/5499002228_87ce7eaae7.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Numb.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5498997886/" title="There's nothing I can do by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="There's nothing I can do" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5293/5498997886_57529f4e5d.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Pointless.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5498404629/" title="Dead by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Dead" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5218/5498404629_28c7fef4f9.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Endless.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/UVlx6mco7XY" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8412V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8728</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-1219705133185892472011-02-25T00:08:00.000-08:002011-02-25T10:41:46.104-08:00a SCRATCH! As if it meant nothing. Twill Serve<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5471792032/" title="You have made worms meat of me by Xxailon, on Flickr"></a><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5456262766/" title="Broken glass by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Broken glass" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5252/5456262766_541b652a60.jpg" width="375" /></a></div><br />
<div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Art Though hurt?</div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IehWRuvwQE&feature=player_detailpage#t=153s"><i>Aye aye.... a scratch... A <b>SCRATCH</b>.... *unh* scratch...</i></a></div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i>Courage man... the hurt can not be much..?</i></div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1765691556"><br />
</a></div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IehWRuvwQE&feature=player_detailpage#t=153s"><i>Twill Serve; Ask for me tomorrow and ye shall find me a grave man</i></a></div><div style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IehWRuvwQE&feature=player_detailpage#t=153s"><i>I was hurt under your arms</i></a></div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: center;"><b>......</b></div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IehWRuvwQE&feature=player_detailpage#t=153s"><i>You have made worm's meat of me.</i></a></div><div style="color: #073763; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;"><br />
</div><div style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;">All that I am, all that I grew to. I was a goddess. </div><div style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;">I wanted to share my immortality with you, but instead you took my vitality.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;">You snuffed it out like a candle. I've now been placed back.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;">Back into the mortal realm of wondering, nay dreaming, of when it will end.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: right;">This cage of distrust, of poignancy, of weariness, of displacement, of disgust.</div><div style="color: black; text-align: right;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #cc0000; text-align: center;"><b>......</b></div><div style="background-color: white; color: black; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I had finally found my peace right before you came along</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I was finally happy to be on my own</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I had finally reconciled with the fact that I would always be alone</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I was happy with and by myself </div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">You pursued me </div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I opened up</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I gave you my mind.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I gave you my heart.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">I gave you my love.</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">then you threw it to the wind saying it only sparked your love, heart, mind for another</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">As if I didn't matter to you - as if it all meant nothing</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">You took what you wanted from me - used me like some tool</div><div style="color: black; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; text-align: center;">to kick start your heart and improve upon your art</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IehWRuvwQE&feature=player_detailpage#t=153s"><i style="color: #0b5394;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Why the devil came you between us?</span></i></a></b></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Now I will spend another 3 years getting back to that lonesome paradise</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">I bet you would say "<i style="color: #cc0000;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I thought all for the best...</span></i>" </span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">One is easily fooled by that which one loves.</span></i><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> -- Jean Baptiste Poquelin Moliere</span><br />
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</span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/4927838853/" title="BJD-Photostory-2010-08-25-Gaius & Leeloo - Leeloo for the better - 33 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Photostory-2010-08-25-Gaius & Leeloo - Leeloo for the better - 33" height="375" src="http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4135/4927838853_be17ba5592.jpg" width="500" /></a><br />
<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/G4jYt7tzeSw" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8135V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8412</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-22644109034659142612011-02-21T09:26:00.000-08:002011-02-21T09:26:47.092-08:00He took my art, broke my heart, and squashed the last of my hope<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5462057379/" title="Broken by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Broken" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5291/5462057379_0eff86849c.jpg" width="375" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> He took my art, broke my heart, and squashed the last of my hope. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"> I still love him and can't cope. I wish I could fight for him, but I can't bewitch his heart. Only make it beat for another - evidently. </div><div style="text-align: center;"> <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5456262766/" title="Broken glass by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Broken glass" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5252/5456262766_541b652a60.jpg" width="375" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">I wish I could sleep my way down this slippery slope. I've no want for anything but him - food, drink, painting, dolls. All the things that gave me comfort seem meaningless. My once precious BJD's all boxed up. I'm now a blank piece of paper without any characteristic of caring.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5455651321/" title="Untitled by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5136/5455651321_a0deaef8e9.jpg" width="297" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">8021V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8135</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-78611685371648387732011-02-16T09:59:00.000-08:002011-02-17T08:43:37.356-08:00I've lost some of the pieces to my broken heart<div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5448733496/" title="Happy Valentines Day - 5 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Happy Valentines Day - 5" height="333" src="http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4078/5448733496_ee98e9b7f0.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I really thought I had found him. I still think I have.<strike></strike></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I still really care for him - I always will. He's like a best friend but more. I didn't know you could get to a point where you can cry so much that you run out of tears. Its like a horrible dry heave that happens when you have the stomach virus and there are no more stomach contents to throw up.</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I don't hate him, in fact I love him quite dearly - even though I haven't said so to him. He knows I care, but I don't think he really gets how much. <br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;">The Fountain has been close to my heart. I keep running Tommy's desperation through my head where he says "I just wanted you to be with me" to his cancer infected wife. If only my situation were such (though of course I don't want him or me to have cancer but you get the idea.) Tommy just wants to be with her, but this un-defeat-able fact of life will separate them - and soon. Tommy can't cope with that.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;">Everything really isn't ok - I am openly willing to admit that everything is not ok. I normally try to save face for everyone else's sake. But I am at such a place that I can't even pretend to be ok a much as I wish I could. I hate having others worry for me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">This time I've lost some of the pieces to my broken heart. Its been broken a few times before, and I had always been able to put all the pieces back together. There were imperfections.... but now there are chunks missing. They turned to dust and melted under the rain of my tears.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">いま私は希望がいない. 私は虹を失ってしまった.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">7926V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 8021</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-4347593690337206062011-02-15T04:12:00.000-08:002011-02-15T04:12:20.986-08:00Xibalba<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/4927815503/" title="BJD-Photostory-2010-08-25-Gaius & Leeloo - Leeloo for the better - 11 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Photostory-2010-08-25-Gaius & Leeloo - Leeloo for the better - 11" height="375" src="http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4102/4927815503_e8daede736.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">7747V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 7926</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-60160890696473619312011-02-03T14:53:00.000-08:002011-02-03T14:53:15.279-08:00Happy about Coffee sans Sugar?!<div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5412224947/" title="Leeloo's
preoccupied hangout - 1 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Leeloo's preoccupied hangout - 1" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5018/5412224947_1183c0a55d.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="color: blue; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue; text-align: center;"><i>Lost in thought and sometimes daydreams....</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div><embed allowscriptaccess="always" flashvars="songId=74928426&pid=-1024196957261243193" height="77" id="FlashDiv" quality="high" src="http://www.myspace.com/music/song-embed?songid=74928426&getSwf=true" style="display: inline;" width="400" wmode="transparent"></embed>Find more artists like <a href="http://www.blogger.com/themercerparty/music/albums/16747619?ap=1&songid=74928426" target="_blank">The Mercer Party</a> at <a href="http://www.myspace.com/music" target="_blank"> Myspace Music </a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've been daydreaming a lot more lately and its been oh so nice. I had started to run out of things to daydream about other than my next photoshoot or this new doll/gizmo that was on the way.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm working more towards my goal of being slimmer (and healthier). It'd be great to be able to very easily be swept off my feet (literally) again. *cube* hehe =) I also want to be in better cosplay shape. As part of my attempt to be healthier I decided to cut out extraneous sugars (completely except for some splenda in my british black tea. I'm actually enjoying coffee without any sugar. And I did it cold-turkey!) I want to figure out some kind of exercise too.... in all reality I would LOVE to find a way to get to the swimming pool a lot. Swimming laps with a waterproof mp3 player setup sounds like a dream to me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've also drawn more lately as well. I've been working quite diligently on a pair of images but my phone's flickr app is being a butt-munch like normal so no preview pic for my readers. And of course just as I say that... the upload works the 30th try.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5414531890/" title="Untitled by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5020/5414531890_f67aa78325.jpg" width="375" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's amazing what a dash of happiness can do</div><div style="text-align: center;">=<b style="color: red;"><span style="color: #20124d;">^</span>.</b><b style="color: #20124d;">^</b>= </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">7228V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 7747</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-51177864029215582102011-01-05T10:49:00.000-08:002011-01-13T08:33:18.438-08:00BJD Commission Shop Opened! Uber Otaku Designs!<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">I finally got around to opening my BJD Customization shop!</span></div><br />
<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5324565805/" title="Uber-Otaku-Design-Logo-2010 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber-Otaku-Design-Logo-2010" height="357" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5287/5324565805_0c2223b2b7.jpg" width="500" /></a></span></span></span></div><br />
<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Check out my sale threads located on the following sites:</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<a href="http://www.ashleyconyers.com/"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>www.AshleyConyers.com</b></span></a><span style="font-size: large;"><b> </b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b><a href="http://resinplus.omgforum.net/t923-uber-otaku-designs">Den of Angels</a></b></span><br />
<a href="http://resinplus.omgforum.net/t923-uber-otaku-designs"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Resin+</b></span></a></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b>I also may be contacted via email:</b></span><br />
<a href="mailto:uberotakudesign@gmail.com"><b>uberotakudesign@gmail.com</b></a><span style="font-size: large;"><b> </b></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">Here are some examples of my recent works:</span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Airbrush Resin Matching (Faceup by Keekster)</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5324479527/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 21 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 21" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5282/5324479527_960da45d39.jpg" width="500" /></a></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Cyber Punk Faceup</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5325082280/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 16 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 16" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5126/5325082280_7461b463c7.jpg" width="416" /></a></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Body Blushing/Tattoo/Piercings</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5325076894/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 08 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 08" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5128/5325076894_7fce2a4384.jpg" width="240" /></a><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5294075459/" title="IMG_0789 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="IMG_0789" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5161/5294075459_0c09118e87.jpg" width="455" /></a></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Faceup</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5325084788/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 20 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 20" height="314" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5282/5325084788_4e5d14526e.jpg" width="500" /></a></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Faceup/Piercings</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5324474577/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 13 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 13" height="312" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5089/5324474577_5d1585f8a8.jpg" width="500" /></a></span></div><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Faceup</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5325074400/" title="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 06 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 06" height="303" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5164/5325074400_48025d3f71.jpg" width="500" /></a></span></div><br />
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">6935V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( 7228</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-80593845889536373652010-12-22T09:18:00.000-08:002010-12-22T09:18:38.722-08:00Holiday Break - gotta stay focused<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5240044453/" title="BJD-Photostory-Leeloo-2010-12-06-On and On - 21 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Photostory-Leeloo-2010-12-06-On and On - 21" height="375" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5209/5240044453_b9cbe29300.jpg" width="500" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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I sit here with the first headache I've had in months and I'm overwhelmed by the amount of things I want to get done over the break.<br />
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I'm not sure if I'm more overwhelmed by the amount of tasks to be done, or my lack of physical motivation to do them. I know I will feel better if I do them, but taking that first step is so hard for me lately.<br />
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Things to accomplish:<br />
<ul><li>Clean my Apartment and re-organize </li>
<li>buy new shoes as all of mine decided to be un-wearable at the same time</li>
<li>Paint Alpha (Minifee Scar Shiwoo)'s faceup - I'm thinking glitter.... mmm</li>
<li>Paint Pudding (Chris's cute Panda thing)</li>
<li>Blush Gaius (Minifee El)'s Body</li>
<li>Redo Leeloo (Minifee Shushu)'s Facup and body blushing </li>
<li>Paint Caprica (Minifee Lishe)'s heads (if his heads have creamed enough)</li>
<li>Get my Druid and Priest up to 85</li>
<li>Get iPhoto totally organized and Flickr up to date</li>
<li>Clean out extra space on laptop HDD</li>
</ul><br />
We'll see how much I've forgotten to put on my list and how much I'll get done.<br />
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<div style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">6776V</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">) ~> ( </span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">6935</span></span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">V)</span></span></div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-1514430215816577572010-12-15T08:13:00.000-08:002010-12-15T08:14:54.220-08:00Photoshoot: Karma, Olden Days Lum/Gaius<div style="text-align: center;">So my internet went down last night... so that left me to play with my camera as entertainment (Yay!)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_405258088"><br />
</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/sets/72157625602322934/with/5263001516/">The Full Karma shoot can be found here</a>, but here are a few of my favorites.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5263001516/" title="BJD-Karma - 1 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Karma - 1" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5250/5263001516_4f1b45cbd1.jpg" width="333" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5262392919/" title="BJD-Karma - 2 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Karma - 2" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5204/5262392919_740e04b449.jpg" width="333" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/sets/72157625602285216/with/5262990660/">The Full Lum/Gaius shoot can be found here</a>, but here are a few of my favorites.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5262990660/" title="BJD-Group-Gaius and Lum-Black and White Courting - 08 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Group-Gaius and Lum-Black and White Courting - 08" height="333" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5130/5262990660_51fc859fac.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>KireiXhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675317246975252741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2276943009169105524.post-81535147683641047322010-12-12T22:04:00.000-08:002010-12-12T22:04:50.378-08:00New Camera and Holiday BJD Meet!<div style="text-align: center;">so... I was going to move but a lot of factors all at once piled up and made me decide not to move quite yet. I think I suddenly had a slightly irrational urge to so I could completely get away from a part of my past.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I decided to get a camera instead and it has been amazing. I also re-organized my Apartment into a much more useful and open layout. Waffles has a space now too so he can get off his station =)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">I ended up getting a Canon 60D with a Canon 50mm prime 1.8 lens (plus a bag, memory cards, UV filter...) and man is it amazing! I have a lot of learning to do on it... but I think I did pretty good today at the Federal Way holiday doll meet. Especially for not having played with a DSLR properly in years. All these images have zero post editing done to them. The <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/sets/72157625587602408/with/5256956300/">full album can be found here</a>, but I also picked out a few of my favorites to share below.<br />
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These pictures are from a Ball Jointed Doll meet-up we had today in Federal Way. This was one of the funnest meets I've been to in a while. I like that everyone really mingled and we ended up in a big pow wow circle again like at the Halloween meet. I also found out a lot of people read my photostories that I didn't realize. Hehehe - makes me even more determined to up my photo skills!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256271645/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 01 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 01" height="281" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5130/5256271645_1b84cc2076.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256885866/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 03 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 03" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5122/5256885866_4e40185bc5.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256277741/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 05 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 05" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5250/5256277741_95396c2a07.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256898532/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 09 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 09" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5288/5256898532_96c4083f14.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256289085/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 10 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 10" height="281" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5006/5256289085_673f7ee59a.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256294175/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 13 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 13" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5123/5256294175_467bf6184b.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256295873/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 14 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 14" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5209/5256295873_1903094fa7.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">Gaius was missing Lum =(</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256297791/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 15 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 15" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5284/5256297791_513a52bfa3.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256913276/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 17 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 17" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5162/5256913276_4809c2764b.jpg" width="375" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256310465/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 21 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 21" height="500" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5129/5256310465_e454eedfae.jpg" width="281" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256319931/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 26 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 26" height="281" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5007/5256319931_dc2c0c4816.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256339873/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 36 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 36" height="281" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5090/5256339873_811ae0142f.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xxailon/5256939872/" title="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 31 by Xxailon, on Flickr"><img alt="BJD-Meetup-2010-12-12-Holiday Meet - 31" height="281" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5285/5256939872_dcceeac3a1.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Now time to RTFM and do some more research so I can improve mah skills!<br />
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