Thursday, November 19, 2009

Wish typing worked this time

I'm not sure why I brought my laptop with me to work today. I will probably sleep at lunch at normal because I certainly do not need to do any online shopping.

Typing out my feelings for the day normally makes me feel better, but I really don't feel I should write them out as most none of them are not any good. I'm full of doubts.

Hmm... something good to focus on...... I have a friend coming over Friday and we have a doll meet the next day, where more friends will be. It will be good to see them again. I could use some smiles. Now if only a certain attendee will behave, be polite, and be a sane person.

Other news..... I started to sand the seams off of Lum(Fairyland Minifee Lishe Boy). So far I think I have his torso and left arm to do still. Next will be Elipses(SOOM MD Heliot) I think. He has some CRAZY seams. They bother me and have actually cut me before!

Hmm well nothing else left good to write.... off to a day of work and sleep.

( 800V) ~~> ( 857V)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I've chased, and it led me knowhere

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I've chased and it led me knowhere.

Yes, I spelled it that way intentionally.

Yes, it hurt.

Yes, it was rough.

Yes, it helped me to gain knowledge, insight.

Can I keep it from happening again?

With heart shaped hands, I hope.

I am riding the bus home, my head full of thoughts. I was thinking of a painting I wish to do and thoughts of that painting's imagery in addition to thoughts of my own human experience have brought me to these words. I will have to get these images out of my head and onto paper/canvas.

( 800V) ~~> ( 805V)

Self realization and re-evaluation might not be so great


I feel as though I am kind of watching myself go through the day today. I see that when I wake in the morning I want to hit snooze, but don't and am very disappointed I do not get to sleep anymore until lunch. I also realize that I do not dream when sleeping, so why would I enjoy it so?

I have been to a point, but have uber realized that I need to work even harder on crossing my t's and dotting my i's. I have friends ordering from two of my favorite doll companies and I had wanted to order at least $200 in stuff.... but I think I will limit myself to only 3 pairs of shoes (2 for Yasui and 1 for Lucien) from one store (because they do not have any shoes of their own to wear) and some silicon headcaps from the other (so my white resin dolls heads do not get stained from wigs).

I am really determined to get rid of all my debt and save up some money. There is no telling what may blind-side me in this life. In typing this statement, I hope I have not jinxed myself. I currently do not, and don't ever want to have to depend on anyone else because they in general are not dependable. Also because we all work in our own way to preserve ourselves and our lives as we see fit, why put that burden on anyone else?

The sleepiness just really hit. I wish I had gotten to the transit center sooner so I could have gotten an iced grande double vanilla latte and lemon poppyseed muffin. Oh well..... thats $5.35 saved. I will at least get to work early enough to take myself a little nap.

I can't wait till today's work day is over. I hope I don't feel like a zombie after it.

( 712V) ~~> ( 800V)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Maybe.... If...... What......

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Maybe there's a lot to take care of

Maybe they just don't feel well

Maybe I care too much

Maybe I need to refocus

Maybe they don't care enough

Maybe turns into if.

What if





and it all ends up in us saying "What?!" with a confused look.


Monday, November 2, 2009

Finally getting around to it!

So, I finally have gotten the gumption to write for my blog.

I've had so many fun things and worries happening, I've just been too worn out. A couple of updates I suppose.....

Received SOOM MD Heliot fullset on Wednesday October 21st (You can see his Opening Video here) and named him Elipses.
This was great, I had two friends who happen to also have Heliots come over and we played with them for hours. It was awesome. We also came up with this funny idea that we have to flesh out sometime.... We have 3 unicorns... and one of their demeanor is kinda grumpy so we thought we should do a video/photostory of them doing the Charlie the Unicorn goes to Candy Mountain bit. it will be epic if we ever do it.
Here is his opening video.

I also received my Delf Nanuri 07 on a Breakaway body the next day Thursday October 22nd. I named him Yasui (because I got him at such a good deal). His opening Video can be found here. He was a great deal, though some of the details of the sale got mixed up (The seller promptly sent the correct item and let me keep the one that was sent by mistake! Yay!) He is so pretty.
Here is his opening video.

Then I received my Delf Shine from Luts on Monday October 26th. I was quite blown away with this guy. I was already drooling over him on the Luts site, but in person... Wow! I still don't have a name for him. Its something that will just hit me. Yasui and him have gotten along quite well! They pose very good together.
Here is his opening video.

And finally I hope to get my Fairyland order today.... though I am doubtful. I am so very excited to get Lum/Caprica (Beauty White Minifee Lishe normal boy). He's going to be soo pretty! I worked really hard on making him a really cute "simple" red dress this weekend and at the very end when I was cutting excess fabric I cut a hole right in it after like 3 hours of work T_T. At least it is in a spot where I can put some cute hearts or something over it.... and turn it into something more cutesy than sexy (/sigh) Oh well. It wasn't all that great anyway. Nice practice.

My Dad comes in this Friday! Im so excited! I gotta finish cleaning my place, its about 1/2 done. I got all the doll play stuff organized (Though I couldn't find Leeloo's camera T_T) now I need to organize my art desk/doll mod stuff, my room, and organize/clean the bathroom.

I also did not get to see Miyavi play..... the concert was canceled because he injured himself... Get better Miyavi and come back Miyavi!

( 604V) ~~> ( 712V)