Sunday, November 6, 2011

A parade of Unicorns!

I got my Adamelli's and Shale in a few weeks ago... and have gotten two of the three done. I've never had to dremel and carve into new dolls this much... just to be able to put them together as they were "designed" to. Its a good thing I can do my own mod work!

Here is a video of my opening

Little Elipses's Faceup done to be a younger version of Big Elipses - my SOOM MD Heliot with the Default Faceup.
Little Elipses-1.5 - 1

Here is Cortana - my Drag Queen conquerer and genius Entrepreneur. (Little Cortana is on the right... this is what Cortana turns to when she's angry)
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Hope you enjoyed!

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Friday, August 5, 2011

Second Chances

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I'm so scared.

I'm scared of not knowing how things will turn out
- of missing that chance of happiness I thought I had -

I'm scared of it happening all over again. It almost killed me before...
- but I have faith in myself, my loved ones, and my strength -

I'm scared of loosing my hope in a love forever
- loosing my faith in love's existence -

I'm scared you won't appreciate this second chance
 - that it will be forgotten over time -

I'm scared of being disappointed

( 11918V) ~> ( 12157V)

Sunday, July 24, 2011

crystal ball please

Ashley-Cosplay-Mana-MDM-Invite to Immorality - 26

Change is scary
Change is good
Change is needed to grow

But is it the right change?

What will change?

Will anything change?

( 11514V) ~> ( 11918V)

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Thank you to the BJD Community

I've been very very busy lately, but in a good way.

Now that I've finally had a chance to be able to catch my breath and reflect on the past month or so I wanted to be sure to send a thank you out to the BJD Community. I've had an absolute blast keeping UberOtakuDesigns filled with work to do. I love the satisfaction I get from making fellow collector's BJD ideas/characters come to life. Doing this not only gives me a way to utilize my artistic tallents to make other's dreams come true, it also has really helped me to make my BJD dreams come true.

Here is another creation I helped come into fruition via Uber Otaku Designs. Meet Mezzo! (Doll owned by HeavenlyRiot)
Mezzo Commission

I did his Face and Lightening arm (his right arm) back in December, and just did his Fire arm (his left arm) this week. Its nice to see a doll fully come together. I did some extra work on his face and lightening arm this week to try to help tie all the work together. The focus/reference and time frame for each commission was different - so it was a fun challenge to tie them together.

Mezzo Commission

Mezzo Commission

Uber Otaku Designs has been far bussier than I ever thought it would be - and I love it! It has helped me get another one of my grail dolls - Yerith my SOOM MD Chalco. He is my Red Bull. His one goal is to control and consume all other things magical. He's constantly after my Herd of unicorns, especially the lady Amalthea.

I purchased him second-hand - and the transaction couldn't have been more dreamy. Great seller and great product! I bought him completely fullset (all clothes, extra blushing, eyes, wig, etc) and he came with extra goodies.

I did a video box opening for him - as I try to do for all of my dolls.

I also have some lovely pictures of him to share below.

Here he is fullset:
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Here he is with his correct eyes:

And just in case you lovely people are reading this and are interested in commissioning me please check out the links below:


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Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Deja Vu

The Moment I said it...
It's like I read the weather report and shrugged my shoulders before the storm returned.
"I told you so" - says the universe.
I heard that you're settled down, 
That you found a girl and you're married now, 
I heard that your dreams came true, 
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you, 
For me it isn't over - and I'll never get to finish the fairy tale
So many things wrong, and some so right
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, 
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, 
I had hoped you'd see my face, 
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Nothing compares, no worries or cares, regrets and mistakes their memories make
Who would have guessed how bitter-sweet this would taste

I'll forget
I've got to give up on fantasy

I've learned contentment.
This one thing I can't control - is the one thing I wish I could change
I'm done searching
There's no point to
( 10612V) ~> ( 11138V)

Friday, May 6, 2011

New apartment, Livecast, Uber Otaku Designs, and Unicorns

BJD's, Robots, and Fun - OH MY!

A lot has happened since I last really blogged.

☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆

( 10258V) ~> ( 10612V)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Selling some BJD musical Instruments

I'm selling some of my instruments for BJD's The DoA thread can be found here

Drum Set A (for MSD or Tiny - see dolls for scale) $20 + Shipping + PP
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included
MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-01
MSD/Tiny Drum Set A for sale-02

Drum Set A (for MSD see dolls for scale) $120 + Shipping + PP
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included
MSD Drum Set B for sale-01
MSD Drum Set B for sale-02

Guitar (for MSD - maybe SD - shown with MSD Minifee for scale) $25 + Shipping + PP
You get everything shown in first photo - no dolls included
MSD Guitar for sale

Email me if you have any questions!

Items will be packaged well so they get to you safely. I should be able to ship within 3-5 business days of receipt of full payment. I ship with USPS and recommend insurance. Once the items leave my possession they are no longer my responsibility.

9583V) ~> ( 10258V)

Monday, March 21, 2011

Announcement: Uncanny Dream - Articulated Fantasy 2011, Ball-Jointed Doll Expo in downtown Seattle, WA

Uncanny Dream - Seattle Doll Expo 2011
(Artwork by Candygears)

I'm excited to announce Uncanny Dream - Articulated Fantasy 2011, a brand new Ball-Jointed Doll Expo in downtown Seattle, WA. This one-day event will feature diorama displays by 7 of the Pacific Northwest's top BJD Customizers. The Expo will also include several Vendors, space for visitors to set up their wares to trade or sell in a trunkshow, and public meetup and photography space.

Admission is Free!

Uncanny Dream will be held Sunday May 29th, 2011 in a large art studio/gallery space in Pioneer Square, right on the Seattle Waterfront. Artists were invited to create fantasy worlds for their dolls to inhabit, ranging from traditional fantasy to steampunk and cyber. We have put together an exciting list of talented BJD customizers from Seattle and the NW region to build these diorama displays, including:
Christy (Captured in Thought)
Fenris (resin+)
KireiX and Keekster (BJD Cast)
KasaMadhuri777 (Alraune Atelier)

A huge variety of customized dolls will be present, including Soom, Dollstown, Fairyland, Dollshe, Dollzone, and many many more.

We have also lined up exciting vendors to sell clothes, wigs, accessories and dolls, including Jpopdolls and Other vendors and special activities will be announced as we draw closer to the event.

The main Gallery space will feature the artists' BJD dioramas for you to enjoy and photograph. The large Hallway Gallery will feature the vendors, and have some space for visitors to set up their own wares in a trunkshow format. The large Photography Studio next to the main gallery will be a public meetup area, and has lots of space to setup and photograph any dolls you're bringing with you.

Uncanny Dream is taking place in the 619 Western Artist Building in downtown Seattle, in the X17 Gallery space. There is ample parking underneath the Alaskan Way Viaduct right behind the building (free on Sundays) and a pay-lot adjoining the building. It is also in easy walking distance to Uwajimaya Asian Market & Bookstore, International Model Toys, Pike's Place Market, and the Seattle Downtown Shopping core so visitors driving to Seattle for the event have convenient access to all Downtown has to offer.

Location Info for Uncanny Dream 2011:

619 Western Ave (4th Floor South)
Seattle WA, 98104
12-6PM Sunday May 29th, 2011

More details to come as the event approaches. Any vendors interested in joining the event can message Candygears on DoA or email her at Artist Diorama submissions for this event are closed, but everyone is encouraged and invited to bring their dolls, and use the public meetup space and photography space.


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Tuesday, March 15, 2011

We both lost something we loved

We both lost something we "loved".

It's sad that yours was a painting, and mine a person.
All that hard work for not...

( 9158V) ~> ( 9328V)

Friday, March 11, 2011

The Art of My Heart

The Art of my Heart

It was obvious in my work first, that only I cared.
It was one-sided and I couldn't see it.

Till the devastating end.

I was a pawn on your game, whether you realized it or not.

I had finally let myself trust my heart and what I felt.
You made me believe that you felt the same, or at least that you even gave the slightest shit.
I had finally let myself dream.
I dreamed of our future, even though it was uncertain.
I didn't dream of my success, your success, our house, our money, or any of those material things.
I dreamed of being by your side.
I wanted our forever.

I'm left with this...
cavity in me....
ALL that is ME. 

My life, My heart, My hopes
My dreams, My happiness, My sanity
My everything 


A friend told me this song in its entirety reminded him of me. It's beautiful 
- Thank you -

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Today is the birth day of my misery

How can I wish him happy birthday, when all he's brought me is misery. 
The worst pain and heartache of my life.

Ashley-BJD-Photostory-2011-02-09-Leeloo-Valentines Nightmare - 14

I can't even reach the safety of my own apartment each day before the tears overwhelm my strength. Every day I close my front door and crumple to the floor crying. Un-ending. It's all I can do to keep afloat and tie this mask on day after day.

To pretend to be OK.

To pretend that I don't need him

To pretend that I'm getting better

To pretend that I'm starting to hate him

Wishing I could hate him

Wishing I could forget him

"What good is a love... that no one shares
And if my life... is like the dust that hides the glow of a rose
then what good am I"

Can't this be like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?

I want it erased.

( 8803V) ~> ( 8937V)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

The Hard Part

The thing that makes it so hard is not because I love you.

Its not because you were taken away, as most tragic love stories are written.

It's because you walked away.

( 8728V) ~> ( 8803V)

Friday, March 4, 2011


(Almost made it)

This, the only evidence left of my heart.
Only Evidence of my heart

Gone - Never to feel again - pain or love.
Never to feel again

 There's nothing I can do



( 8412V) ~> ( 8728V)

Friday, February 25, 2011

a SCRATCH! As if it meant nothing. Twill Serve

Broken glass

Art Though hurt?

Courage man... the hurt can not be much..?


All that I am, all that I grew to. I was a goddess. 
I wanted to share my immortality with you, but instead you took my vitality.
You snuffed it out like a candle. I've now been placed back.
Back into the mortal realm of wondering, nay dreaming, of when it will end.
This cage of distrust, of poignancy, of weariness, of displacement, of disgust.


I had finally found my peace right before you came along
I was finally happy to be on my own
I had finally reconciled with the fact that I would always be alone
I was happy with and by myself
You pursued me
I opened up
I gave you my mind.
I gave you my heart.
I gave you my love.
then you threw it to the wind saying it only sparked your love, heart, mind for another
As if I didn't matter to you - as if it all meant nothing
You took what you wanted from me - used me like some tool
to kick start your heart and improve upon your art

Now I will spend another 3 years getting back to that lonesome paradise

I bet you would say "I thought all for the best..."

One is easily fooled by that which one loves. -- Jean Baptiste Poquelin Moliere

BJD-Photostory-2010-08-25-Gaius & Leeloo - Leeloo for the better - 33
( 8135V) ~> ( 8412V)

Monday, February 21, 2011

He took my art, broke my heart, and squashed the last of my hope

 He took my art, broke my heart, and squashed the last of my hope. 

I still love him and can't cope. I wish I could fight for him, but I can't bewitch his heart. Only make it beat for another - evidently. 
 Broken glass
I wish I could sleep my way down this slippery slope. I've no want for anything but him - food, drink, painting, dolls. All the things that gave me comfort seem meaningless. My once precious BJD's all boxed up. I'm now a blank piece of paper without any characteristic of caring.

( 8021V) ~> ( 8135V)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I've lost some of the pieces to my broken heart

Happy Valentines Day - 5

I really thought I had found him. I still think I have.

I still really care for him - I always will. He's like a best friend but more. I didn't know you could get to a point where you can cry so much that you run out of tears. Its like a horrible dry heave that happens when you have the stomach virus and there are no more stomach contents to throw up.

I don't hate him, in fact I love him quite dearly - even though I haven't said so to him. He knows I care, but I don't think he really gets how much.
The Fountain has been close to my heart. I keep running Tommy's desperation through my head where he says "I just wanted you to be with me" to his cancer infected wife. If only my situation were such (though of course I don't want him or me to have cancer but you get the idea.) Tommy just wants to be with her, but this un-defeat-able fact of life will separate them - and soon. Tommy can't cope with that.

Everything really isn't ok - I am openly willing to admit that everything is not ok. I normally try to save face  for everyone else's sake. But I am at such a place that I can't even pretend to be ok a much as I wish I could. I hate having others worry for me.

This time I've lost some of the pieces to my broken heart. Its been broken a few times before, and I had always been able to put all the pieces back together. There were imperfections.... but now there are chunks missing. They turned to dust and melted under the rain of my tears.

いま私は希望がいない. 私は虹を失ってしまった.

( 7926V) ~> ( 8021V)

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Happy about Coffee sans Sugar?!

Leeloo's preoccupied hangout - 1

Lost in thought and sometimes daydreams....

Find more artists like The Mercer Party at Myspace Music

I've been daydreaming a lot more lately and its been oh so nice. I had started to run out of things to daydream about other than my next photoshoot or this new doll/gizmo that was on the way.

I'm working more towards my goal of being slimmer (and healthier). It'd be great to be able to very easily be swept off my feet (literally) again. *cube* hehe =) I also want to be in better cosplay shape. As part of my attempt to be healthier I decided to cut out extraneous sugars (completely except for some splenda in my british black tea. I'm actually enjoying coffee without any sugar. And I did it cold-turkey!) I want to figure out some kind of exercise too.... in all reality I would LOVE to find a way to get to the swimming pool a lot. Swimming laps with a waterproof mp3 player setup sounds like a dream to me.

I've also drawn more lately as well. I've been working quite diligently on a pair of images but  my phone's flickr app is being a butt-munch like normal so no preview pic for my readers. And of course just as I say that... the upload works the 30th try.

It's amazing what a dash of happiness can do

( 7228V) ~> ( 7747V)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

BJD Commission Shop Opened! Uber Otaku Designs!

I finally got around to opening my BJD Customization shop!


Check out my sale threads located on the following sites:

I also may be contacted via email:

Here are some examples of my recent works:

Airbrush Resin Matching (Faceup by Keekster)

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Cyber Punk Faceup
Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 16

Body Blushing/Tattoo/Piercings
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Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 20

Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 13

Uber Otaku Design Portfolio - 06

( 6935V) ~> ( 7228V)