Sometimes I get so tired of being me.
I feel like I'm pthalo blue, who sometimes turns into a rainbow living in a monochrome
black, white, and gray world.......
I used to be a rainbow all the time, but I don't have it in me much anymore. I've got to find a way back.
I don't know how....... I'm trying.......
When a rainbow
sometimes I'm too bright for some people's eyes
or they assume what I'm about or they want something from me
or they simply don't like me without looking
or they l<3ve me.
When I'm phtalo blue, only in certain light do you see the gorgeous deep blue. Most just see me as black.
It's so hard to relate to the other colors. When a rainbow I can appreciate them, but they tend to not reciprocate.
There's no connection for most.
I often try to become something that suits them most. I've tried
living with and merging my life with yellow, and slowly I became
green and then gray. I became absorbed in yellow and lost my
pigment. Then a crane knocked down all of that. I miss it and yet I
never want it again.
I'm lost in a rainbow
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