The day when Dreaming ends

Today was the day that was meant to of changed it all. The day that started the rest of my life. I'm tired of what could've been and have realized that it never would have been and never will be.

I'm tired of pondering what will be - because I know it won't ever be in the mindset I am in now.

I want to be enganged. I want to be engaging. I want to feel again.

It all ends today

yes it all ends today

Today's a day when dreaming ends

On and on

does anybody know what we are living for

whatever happened?

we leave it all to chance

another heartache

another failed romance

I want to do so much and yet don't have the motivation.

I've started to not want.

I've learned regret - one thing I had sworn would never let touch me but now I regret.

I regret having experienced the closest thing I know to love. Yet given how things turned out it makes me doubt it was real. 

Today is a day when dreaming ends.

I still try to hold on to that notion of the existence of a love everlasting, surviving a thousand year journey through lives, time, and space.

( 6424V) ~> ( 6532V)

* A chapter over - Time to start a new *

Well I've finally gotten resolution to almost 10 years of pain sprinkled with happiness. Many different factors have brought this to a fruition.

I'm not going to stand by to be picked up to only the thrown to the wayside again. I honestly feel sorry for my predecessor, the other thrown away flower that is feeble enough to not stand on their own and refuse to be abused more. I stand for more than that. I'm worth more than that.

I might not be everyone's ideal and may not waver and bend to others wants when they clash with my own opinions but everyone has a right to the way they feel. Compromise is right in the correct situation. What one wants out of life is not one of them.

I'm done.

I'm just so done with it all.

I've got to purge this negativity.

Positive thoughts bring positive results

Once again I'm strengthened and believe in me.

Hold my hands and hug me friends. I'll need it.

I'll find you love - I just know it.

( 6401V) ~> ( 6424V)

A shadow of dream and reality

tried so hard

Have you made it yet?

hmmmmmmMMMMMM?????????????

Me, Myself,  and I. 

 None Else

In the end.... it doesn't even matter

not that you knew me back then, but it all comes back to me in the end

a shadow of dream and reality. Neither are true or matter in the end. The end of dreaming

It's cold, can't I see?

taking comfort

sick of it

a place for my head

( 6250V) ~> ( 6401V)

Thanksgiving Dollie fun photos

Here are some of the pictures I took over the Thanksgiving holiday. Not too bad for a few lamps, paper, and a partially borked 5 year old Canon pocket camera, ne? Only cropping done on some photos- no other editing.

An extremely awesome photo of Yoshi(My Fairyland Minifee Karsh)

Yoshi(Fairyland Minifee Karsh) and Taka(Fairyland Minifee Juri08) together for the first time. Taka is borrowing Leeloo's body in this shoot. I'll get her a body some day...

A dance m'lady?

Leeloo enjoying herself for once.

She's starting to find happiness.

Lum and Gaius sending out the love

<3

Lum beautiful as ever

Vogue!

Queen Pink

( 6043V) ~> ( 6250V)

Fairyland Autumn Event Arrival (Puki Ante, Ruby, Pong + Extras)

I finally got my box and finally got to open it...

The arrival of Puki Ante, Ruby, Pong, Lishe heads, and body for Scar Breakaway + Extras

(plus a lot of crap I forgot I ordered came (Fairyland Autumn Event Arrival))

I'm stealing internet from a neighbor (my Modem died and I don't get a new one till Saturday) to post my box opening pics and video.

Box opening video:

The pictures were just done with my iphone in my dark apartment.... so they aren't that amazing. But I'm also going to do some real camera pics and video later on. (Will update when done)

Here are some of the crappy iPhone pics... The full photo set can be found here

All the items I got unboxed (except the Breakaway scar head on the mnf body)

Beyla on the box for size

Minifee A-Line Muscle body with blank Lishe heads

Lishe heads

Puki clothes/wigs

Event Sword/Shields

PongPong

My Ante's (Littlefee and Puki) Only the Puki arrived today. Had the Littlefee already

This is an insanely creepy picture for me - they will never be close together again. lol

Puki Ruby

The Puki-fun begins!

I LOVE this shot....

Minifee A-Line Muscle boy body with Scar Breakaway Head, Scar Chest Piece, and right (lightening) scar arm

( 6005V) ~> ( 6043V)